Student Teaching...finally!

 

Wow! I can't believe I am finally student teaching! It's been a long road, you guys! If you would have asked me a year ago...5 months ago, 2 months ago, I don't think I would have been able to tell you that this is where I'd be! But the hardest part is over, sort of! I can't even begin to tell you how hard it was/is to leave Ivy! Sunday night, I was giving her a bath and she just kept kicking in the water staring up at me and smiling! I thought in my head, "AND I HAVE TO LEAVE YOU TOMORROW, FOR 4 MONTHS!?" I never went back to school or work after I had her, so she's been my sidekick over the past 4.5 months. I've watched her grow from a skinny little newborn to a laughing-happy-chunky monkey! I've woken up with her EVERY NIGHT since she was born...and now I have to leave her, so I can get my degree? Was I making the right decision?! Should I wait until she is older? Then I lost it. Completely lost it. As Ivy sat in her little bath chair, kicking away, I was sitting on the floor next to her with my knees to my chest, asking myself all these questions. 

 

But, Wade and I had already decided that the only way to finish, was to start! And look at me, I'm 3 days into this! :) It's a good thing I have him because he always helps me to be better! He encouraged me to finish. He promised to help me around the house. He told me he would get up with her whenever he needed to. Whatever needed to be done so that I could graduate, he would do! He reminded me how long it took me to get where I'm at. He reminded me how long I've studied for certain requirements (praxis, diagnostics, literacy tests..etc etc...) He reminded me of the money I've spent on tuition, books, and tests. He reminded me that he believed in me and that I CAN DO HARD THINGS....and that him and Ivy were proud of me. Then he reminded me that by finishing, I would be an example to IVy in the future. And then I was sold. Sold on finishing for that last purpose. I love that girl, she brings so much happiness into my life, I would literally do ANYTHING for her. And if that means I have to leave her for a while to finish school..so that someday she can know that she can finish and do hard things to have a better life, then I MOST DEFINITELY will. 

She's in great hands. I love that I don't have to worry about her while I'm at school. She's nearby if anything were to go wrong. I have nothing to worry about. I have a great mentor teacher who is teaching me so many things already! I'm at an awesome school!  It's hard, but it feels right. I know I am doing the right thing right now. I'm doing whats best for MY family, and that's all that matters. Thanks to everyone who's encouraged me and supported me throughout the last 4 years. SERIOUSLY COULD NOT HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT YOU! Are you reading this Becca? :) Darren? Carrie? Mom? Dad? Heidi? Jordan? Alesha? Heather? Dustin? Wade? Lori? McManus? Nicole B? Nicole K? Bro Johnstun? 

BROTHER LARSEN!??! Haynes? THANK YOU! :)