just some ramblings for a sunday.

life has been good to me, to us. i sometimes catch myself wondering if something terrible is going to happen anytime soon, because it can't be normal for things just to be going right all the time. but that's not true. there have been things in my life that haven't always gone right, but somehow in a way, i guess they've just been ....made right? it's interesting how during a trial, it seems like it will never end and that you're the only person in the whole world who has ever gone through something like this before...i remember when my parents told me they were getting a divorce and that my dad was moving to utah. I went to work that day in complete shock and broke down anytime i was alone. I thought that my life was going to be changed forever, and it was. I thought about my little brother and sister and how their lives were going to be so different from my own growing up. What would it be like at their sports events? What happens if my car breaks down? Who do I call? What if i need a priesthood blessing? How should the wording be on my wedding invitation? So many things went through my head and I couldn't handle it at the time. I had choices to make, alone. As time went on, I couldn't picture my life any other way. My parents are both remarried and happy. I love both of their new spouses and everything and everyone is taken care of. Divorce is so hard, but it was right at the time. And it's right now, too. Everything that was a trial, turns into everyday life. Today, I could tell you that was the most significant trial in my life, but today I could also tell you that it is no longer a trial, and it was a blessing, for everyone. Things may not have been able to work out then, but little did we know that God had a plan for now. 

 

My family is changing. It's strange to look back and try to remember when none of us kids were married. We were always busy with sports. We would support each other and attend each others events. Then slowly things start changing, and now there's only two kids left at home. Glen's getting married next week, Ryan and Jordan are having a baby, Dani and Tyler have moved away and Wade and I are graduating soon....is this real life? i love it. but it's going to fast and i feel like i'm not ready for a lot of things! I also thought I wasn't ready for college...but when are you really ready for any type of change? When you feel confident in your future, that's when, i guess. I never was afraid to be married though. I love being married to wade, he is my confidence. He always makes me feel like everything is going to be okay. Out of all the lives he could have chosen to live..all the directions he could have chosen to go, he chose to be with me, and I chose to be with him. We chose each other. Marriage is challenging, but its okay, because it keeps us on our toes and aware of each other. Life is good with the Leavitts.